What do you think of my monologue (HONEST!)?

I'll be honest, I don't like it. Sounds like a preppy girl whining. There's no room for real expression, and the words are painfully simple and bland. If you want a good monologue, you need to create a character and convey an emotion. From this I get: annoying girl being whiny. If this is about a suicide, focus on those emotions and that person. Make it interesting to watch and hear, not boring and plain. I would honestly go for a totally different approach, because unless you're absolutely brilliant, I would leave the festival about a paragraph into this, not a page and a half.